he calls me a romantic.
it sounds so cheezy.
i want to do whatever my heart desires at that particular moment.
i believe everything happens for a reason.
i believe there is always a way to do what you want.
there is always away to fix something once it has gone wrong.
at night, when its quiet. i feel like the whole world stops to let me sleep.
he is right.




i was being a little unrealistic.
last night, my plan was to sell my car, save as much money as i could, and leave to london on my birthday [october 9th], then travel around. from london to india, then india to thailand. and so on.
rory said he couldn't come because of school.
he told me i wouldn't have enough money. that i would run out quickly.
but he told me not to let that stop me.

i dream too big.
when people bring me back down to earth it makes me sad.
last night i was sad when rory told me it wasn't sensible to follow through with the plan i had.

he told me to go to florida at the end of the month like i was planning.
take some classes. then take mini adventures. one in december. then a larger one over the summer.
it is much more realistic of a plan. but i don't want to wait.
i want to go now and not know what my plan is.

i just get so frustrated thinking about money, and thinking about school.
i know everything will work out, but i think too much.

i think too much
and dream too big.